Babysitting.

Just a forewarning, this post is really jumble-y and scattered, just some things that are on my mind right now(:

Call me crazy, but I absolutely love babysitting. I babysat tonight with my sister for the Junior Women's Club's kids. There were 7 kids there, all under the age of 10, running back and forth and jumping everywhere and screaming and so much more... talk about crazy. But it's then that I think I can really see a small glimpse of what it would be like in the future. To be a Mom... for it to be my house, my kids, my family... I just love it, and I can completely see myself being there one day. I want to have like 6 kids (call me crazy, say that I'm too young to understand yet... I don't really care, it's what I want), and I want to raise them to be disciples for Christ. I want to teach my daughter how to dance and cook and I want to watch my son play baseball. I want to show them how to use their imaginations and to play with playdough and not be afraid to get messy sometimes. I want to hear them laugh and sing and pray. I want to show them how to give butterfly kisses. I want to be there for them when they fall and get hurt, and I want to cheer them on as they achieve their goals. I think that's part of the reason I seem so impatient sometimes. I can almost see myself there more than anywhere else... but there are so many variables that have to fall into place first. Sometimes I really wish I could just know, you know? But I'm trusting, God's plan is always the very best!

I had a fabulous time with those kids tonight. I love being with kids more than anything else. I don't get joy like that in many other places. It's times like these when I feel really called to work with kids one day. I don't know what yet... maybe a teacher, or counselor, or childlife specialist, or pediatric radiologist, or even just a Mom. It's what I can see myself doing and loving it even just 10 years from now. I know God has a plan for me, and I really can't wait to see what it is. Maybe I will be a Mom one day, and have my own house with kids running everywhere. Maybe I'll run an orphanage somewhere in the middle of Africa. Maybe there's something different I'll be called to do or be. Who knows. All I know right now is, I'm loving where I am and what God is doing in and through me. He knows everything about me, and He has a perfect plan for my life. It's because of that that I can trust in Him for all things, and have faith that my life will turn out right! I am in such awe of His grace and mercy tonight. What a fantastic God!

Love,

Legs♥