Tuesday, August 31, 2010



"When I look in the mirror

I always see just what I’d change

But when God looks down upon me

He sees my beauty in full range

Sometimes I make choices

That I know aren’t right for me

It’s true hindsight is twenty-twenty

Because it’s crystal clear I see

I like to have my way most times

I’m selfish, I’ll admit

But it’s then I am so thankful

That He will forgive me and forget

Sometimes I feel un-useable

Like I’m worth nothing at all

But God doesn’t always call the equipped

Sometimes he equips the called

There are days I feel so lonely

It feels like I don’t fit in

But I always fit with my Father

After all, He’s my best friend

I find myself thinking

How could anyone ever love someone like me

But then I remember in God’s eyes

I’m a masterpiece

I’m definitely not perfect

I mess up all the time

Sometimes big, sometimes small

It happens on a dime

He knows every part of me

My tears, joys, and shame

He knows my words, actions, and thoughts

He even knows my name

In His word God says

He’ll forgive me if I ask for it

But why is it I have the hardest time

With myself, to forgive and forget

No matter what the world does

If it gets up and walks away

I know that my God loves me

He always saves the day

That’s why I’m so thankful

Christ came and died for me

For when God looks down upon me

It’s Jesus that he sees"


P.S. I really want feedback on here. What do you think?

Monday, August 30, 2010

Ballet and Tap=Fabulous mood.

So I kinda feel like I'm talking to myself here. (Am I?)
But even if I am, that's A-Okay!
I don't really blog for anyone else though.
I blog to keep myself sane. And it's fun to look back on, ya know?

Anyways. Tonight was fabulous. I lovelovelove my dance family. They make my world so much brighter! And the feeling of being completely in control of your body, yet completely losing it at the same time. And moving through every single emotion you've felt that day, moving until they all run together. It all melts, the whole world; it's non-existant for those two hours in the studio. It's just you, and the music. There really isn't anything else like it! Sometimes forgetting the world isn't such a bad thing. I can't even tell you how much I needed tonight. And now that my head is clear, I must get back to some last-minute school work, or else I'd go way more in depth. But for all .5 of my readers out there, another post will be forthcoming, I promise! Haha. Time to go finish precal. But it's okay, dance was completely and totally worth every second!

"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song." Psalm 28:7



Fear can be a hard thing to deal with sometimes. There are so many things that I'm afraid of... from spiders and snakes, to the fear of being forgotten, or unloved. There are times when we allow our fears to define us. Sometimes we are so afraid of what other people will think that we do things that completely aren't who we are. We live in this constant state of being afraid of being rejected, or disliked. But Jesus was rejected, and very much disliked. That's something that's always been really hard for me to grasp. I like it when people like me, I like to please. I don't want to offend anyone. But sometimes it is necessary to speak truth to them. That's what Jesus did. And sometimes, the hardest person to tell that truth to can be yourself.

But fear isn't always the main thing. It's the ability to overcome those fears. After all,
"Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear. The brave may not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all. From now on you'll be traveling the road between who you think you are and who you can be. The key is to allow yourself to make the journey."

So maybe it's not about having fears, it's about overcoming them. It's about stepping over that boundary and becoming who you're supposed to be. Maybe, just maybe, you might end up liking that person better anyways.


Sunday, August 29, 2010

Idina Menzel - Brave

I love her.
I love this song.
So I don't even know if what I got from this is what she meant, but I think that's part of what's so cool about music. It's up to each and every person to take what they hear and interpret it how they please. This video has so much reference to me right now... more than anyone knows. See the thing is, though she leaves a trail... a little bit of her... everywhere she goes, she's moving forward. She's becoming who she is, who she's supposed to be. Even if it means some tough goodbyes, at least it's time to start a new chapter. Each place she goes is a part of who she is. And each place she's been, all linked together, becomes who she is now. Some times she's happy, and others times are hard. There are times where she might still cry, and bleed, and completely crash, but at the same time, she keeps up hope. She keeps walking, and changing. Tomorrows can be so hard sometimes... the whole unknown thing can just be overwhelming, especially when you look in the mirror and don't even see the same person looking back. But it's then that we have to be brave. There's a difference between not being afraid and being brave, you know. Being brave is being afraid, but doing it anyway. We have to move on, even if it's just one baby step at a time. And even if we have to face it on our own, all alone. It'll be worth it. I wish I could explain what all this means to me personally, but I don't want to write you a novel. But, for now, I'll tell you this.

It's my turn to be brave...♥


Thursday, August 26, 2010

One Tree.

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being in love which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." St. Augustine.


Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Second chances♥

Our God is a God of second chances.
I mess up. A lot. Sometimes I mess up really big, an sometimes it's just little things, but the thing is, if I ask for forgiveness, He gives it. It's a concept that is really hard for me to grasp, but at the same time, one I want to grasp and hold on to with both hands. He knows my heart... my joys, sorrows, fears, regrets, smiles, tears... everything. He knows everything about me, and yet he loves me anyway. It doesn't matter what I've done before; if I truly repent, it's gone. I don't ever have to look at it or see it again. And it doesn't matter what other people think about me because of it- the one that matters forgave me. But you know what else? If He can forgive me for my mistakes, then I should be able to forgive myself. And if I forgive myself, then what else really matters? I have never been happier to be so tiny, and so loved. Something I've learned today, again for the first time... He never gives up on me. No matter who else, or what else does, He never will. He'll always stay by me, always be on my side, and always love me unconditionally. I've never been more thankful, or more humbled than when I think about this. This song has been stuck on replay in my head today, and I think it pretty much sums it up...

"Walking, stumbling, on these shadowfeet,
Toward home, a land that I've never seen.
I am changing, less and less asleep
Made of different stuff than when I began
And I have sensed it all along
Fast approaching is the day
When the world has fallen out from under me,
I'll be found in you, still standing.
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees,
when time and space are though, I'll be found in you."

"Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."-Lamentations 3:22-23



Okay, I definitely took the whole 'craft tutorial' idea, but I figured it'd make an interesting post (: I spent one of my last days of summer with my two 'little sisters'... one is twelve and one ten. We decided to make this fabulously cheap craft together, and it was so much fun. I really recommend it!

1. Get some super cheap yarn (I chose black? That way you could use whatever colors inside) And some (also cheap!) white glue. Just make sure the glue dries strong, not flexible.

2. Get a disposable container (I recommend a pudding container!) and pour a small amount of glue into it.
3. Cut a length of yarn (12 inches is a good starting point) and dip it in the glue. Then, run the yarn between your fingers to remove the excess glue.

4. Lay some wax paper out onto any flat surface (I used a cookie pan, so that way it was easy to move around.) Then, take your yarn and shape it into whatever you desire. Make sure that all shapes are closed shapes and that the yarn is flat on the wax paper; any holes will leak. Make as many shapes as you want, and let them dry completely.

5. Once the yarn is completely dry, squeeze glue into the outline until it is completely filled.

6. Drop food coloring into the glue and stir (use something small, like the end of a pencil or a toothpick). You can use different colors for different areas, or blend the colors together. Be careful not to blend too much, the dye spreads.

7. Let dry completely. When totally dry, peel off of wax paper.

8. Poke a hole through the top and lace yarn through the top to hang with, and then enjoy your new suncatchers!


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

A Little About Me(:

I like to watch Glee, Food Network, and Disney channel. I’ve taken dance classes since I was four. I was saved when I was 13, and I'll never be the same again. My first concert was Elton John & Billy Joel. My favorite colors are purple and lime green. My favorite ice cream is probably a tie between chocolate chip cookie dough and moose tracks. I love flowers, but don’t have a green thumb. I don’t like video games. My favorite movies are The Little Mermaid, The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, and ‘Cinderella Story’ movies… they make me feel like there’s still hope for love one day. I cry watching those home improvement shows. I’ve never been kissed. I got my ears pierced when I was nine. I play the trumpet, and I'm the drum major for my band this year. I’m stubborn, and frustrating, and I tend to say what I’m thinking. I’m clumsy, and I lose things all the time. I am easily amused, and easily amazed. I hope that never changes. I dream huge dreams, and I give everything I've got to anything I commit to. I like to read any book by Lurlene McDaniel or Sarah Dessen. I could spend hours looking at the stars. I love photography and being behind the camera. At dance, they call me Legs. I have one sister, four years younger than me, named Emma.

My favorite number is seventeen. My favorite candy is probably a tie between juicee gummy bears, and reese cups. I love sunsets. Penguins are my favorite animal, and I love the smell of bonfires and fresh cut grass. I want to have six kids one day. I either want to teach first grade or work with pediatric oncology patients... either in childlife specialty or radiology. I don't want to live in the Newton-Conover/Hickory area forever, I want to move somewhere else. I love staying up super late, and I get my best thinking done at about 3 in the morning. I make situations complicated that shouldn't be. I'm really bad at making decisions. My Nana is my best friend. I love rainy days because I get to use my rain stuff... like rainboots, my clear dome umbrella, and yellow (Curious George) rain coat! My favorite season is summer, but not just because we're out of school. I love the hot weather. I don't like cold weather, or snow really. I've never been in love. I like shopping for new clothes. I love the way Sams Club smells. I can't sing at all. I love Zumba. The majority of my friends are older than I am. I'm not judgmental. Pinky promises mean everything to me. I don't really care too much about what other people think... which is both good and bad. But the thing is, I'm me. Imperfect, yes. But a work in progress. And I'll make it someday, I have no doubt!



Sunday, August 22, 2010


"You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand there are pleasures forever more." -Psalm 16:11

"For his anger is but for a moment, and his favor is for a lifetime. Weeping may last for a night, but joy comes with the morning." -Psalm 30:5

"These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full." -John 15:11

"A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit." -Proverbs 15:13

"Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." -Romans 15:13

Although happiness is based on emotion, and therefore not always present, we, in all times, and in all things, we have a joy that cannot be taken. And for that simple fact, I am so eternally grateful. Because I sure as heck don't deserve it. What an amazing, wonderful, powerful God we serve. I wish I could say I always remembered this when I'm upset... but I don't. But when I think about the fact that he always loves me, no matter how badly I mess everything up, I'm astounded. How can you not smile when you're loved like that?♥


Friday, August 20, 2010

& So it begins!
Marching Season 2010 ♥

OSR Parade!


Thursday, August 19, 2010


"When you are exasperated by interruptions, try to remember that the very frequency of your interruptions may indicate the valuableness of your life. Only the people who are full of help and strength are burdened by other people's needs. The interruptions which we chafe at are the credentials of our indispensability. The greatest condemnation anybody could incur... and it is a danger to guard against... is to be so independent, so unhelpful, that nobody ever interrupts us and we are left comfortably alone."-Anonymous


Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Kakey & Legsies

Yesterday was fabulous. I got to spend the majority of the day with my best friend, since she leaves for college tomorrow. We had such a fantastic time! We went to lunch at Chickfila, and then went and took some fun pictures downtown, and then went to the first dance class of the year! I had a wonderful time. Although I do miss her like crazy already, I know we'll keep in touch, and she's going to be fabulous in college! Here's some of our pictures (:

There were several like this one ^ before we actually got it!


Friday, August 13, 2010


I want to be a stereotype breaker. I don't want to fit the description 97% of adults label teenagers with. See, here's the thing...

Not every teenager hates their parents
Or thinks they are stupid
Or is on drugs
Or is obsessed with drinking and sex.
Not every teenager thinks they are invincible
Or is careless about how they handle themselves
Or is lazy
Or has no work ethic.
Not every teenager is confused about who they are
Or doesn't know what they want to become
Or has no self esteem
Or is always looking for ways to act out.
Not every teenager listens to loud, obnoxious music
Or is uncultured
Or doesn't pay attention
Or expects to always be entertained
Not every teenager skips out on church for the world
Or doesn't pray and witness
Or forgets about God.
Not every teenager fits the 'every teenager' we've created.

I'm tired of being grouped in with everything that people assume teenagers are. I want to make the best of my life... my whole life. Including my teenage years. I want to look back on them with no regrets. I want to do hard things, accomplish big ideas, and reach for the sky. The thing is... being a teenager means that I still have my whole life in front of me. I still have time to dream big dreams, wish on stars, learn from mistakes, and become who I'm meant to be. I don't want to waste this time. I want to be a stereotype breaker.


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Fabulous Cape!

So today was fabulous. I am officially a part of the best band ever. And I looooove them! We had such a great time today, and it was the last official day of band camp! No more 8-6! Whooooohoooooo! But it's kinda sad too... I'll miss being with them all day! Today was Superhero day, and guess what! The woodwinds made Mr. Neely and myself a cape! I LOVE it.

I mean, forreal! It's PURPLE!!! And it says DM2010 and it has a snowflake and says "Keeper of the Beat!" It's my favorite article of clothing. ever. that i've ever had. It's wonderful! And today, not that it matters as much (sarcasm!) but I finally got all my time and tempo changes right in the first and second song! And I didn't fall on the parade route! And I got my cues right! I need to work on cutoffs, but it'll get there! And finally, to end a long, hot day, we had a huge water balloon fight! In the pouring rain. With like a thousand water balloons. It was fantastic. I was soaking wet, and laughing so hard my sides hurt! Fabulous stress relief. So, this ends band camp 2010. I can't wait to see what the rest of the season holds!


Thursday, August 5, 2010

Life is fabulous.

I figured everyone could use a little reminder every now and then. I know I can.